I know I’ve said it a million times on this blog, but the past year has been one of the absolute best of my life. I remember about a year ago I wrote about my “pinch me” moment when InStyle Magazine wrote about my jewelry line on their website and still to this day it’s crazy for me to even type that sentence! As humans we often get so focused on where we want to be in our life, what we need to do better, things we need in order to feel “complete”, and worrying about our future, that we forget to stop and live in the moment. I know every girl out there with Pinterest has some variety of “Live in the Moment” quoted on one of her boards, but what does that really mean?
As someone who tends to worry about the future and be her own worst critic, to me it means taking the time to really be “present” in each moment and not being fearful about what the future may bring. A few weeks ago Tyler and I were asked to speak at our church, Forest Hill, here in Charlotte and to say I was nervous would be an extreme understatement. I kept thinking, “Why in the world would anyone want to hear what I have to say about my faith? These people have been walking with The Lord for far longer than I have. Everyone is going to leave church asking themselves why that chick from that reality show was on the stage.” I kept thinking that David Chadwick, the pastor, was going to read some of the things people say about me on the internet and call back, saying they decided to go a different direction with the service (aka Christian talk for, “You’re not who I thought you were and we don’t really care about what you have to say.”).
For so many years I have questioned why He would bring me through something like The Bachelor and eventually The Bachelorette, knowing all along I would meet my husband through church just a few miles from my house. Couldn’t He have spared me so much heartbreak and humiliation? Well, as I was praying for Him to give me any excuse NOT to speak at church, I kept getting the same message: THIS was the very reason. I have gone through many storms in my life, only to have God bring me through to the other side and now was my chance to give Him all the glory. I have been so caught up in worrying about my past and trying to move forward, that I didn’t even realize that He had already brought me through. So I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t be so worried about the future and the person you want to be, that you forget to recognize that maybe you’re already there and you’ve already become that person!
If you want to check out the video from last Sunday, here’s the link! You can also download the Forest Hill app and watch any of the services from your phone. If you’re in the Charlotte area and are looking for a church, I can’t say enough wonderful things about Forest Hill and how much it has impacted my life!